I am 32 years old, Fil-Am (Half FIlipino, half amazing). I am very much passionate about blogging and sharing stuff to people. Singing is my number one passion, but I am not a great singer, I just pretend to be. I wanna venture into vlogging but it's gonna take some time. :)
The deafening silence was the answer I never wanted to hear, but the answer that I needed nonetheless.
At the back of my head were questions that I kept buried with the sweetest words and empty promises. Questions that I never wanted to ask because I was afraid of what I would hear.
It’s funny how silence can answer the questions that were never uttered. Questions that were kept buried in the depths of my scarred heart. Questions that I never wanted to entertain, but have been haunting me in the dead of the night once the world goes silent.
Now when it was your time to finally give me reassurance, you left me with a screaming silence. It was so loud that it deafen the beating of our once synchronized hearts. It was so loud that it made me wake up from the fairytale I was living in my dreams.
I wish I could have gotten more than silence when I most needed to hear actual words. I thought I deserved at least an ounce of respect from someone who once claimed to protect my heart from being hurt. But just like a ghost passing by, I was left with a cold shiver and a deafening silence.
Aside from the entertainment, I believe sometimes we get something more of value from movies too. In an indirect way, movies do help us realise some things we may never have thought of before. I’ve always loved the movie IF ONLY, because it has taught me that TIME is the best gift one could ever receive.
Sometimes, we say lovely things and shower people with gifts because it’s our way of showing how much we adore them without realising that more than those, what they truly want from us is our time… for them to feel valued… for them not to be adored, but to truly be loved.
Ian, the guy from the movie said, “How can you love someone so much and not know how… how to love her?” I know most of us have experienced this dilemma one way or another. How do we truly love someone? How can words mean more than just words?
I don’t have a definite answer to this myself because people respond differently to things. But I do know that when you truly love someone, you’d choose them in a heartbeat. You’d make them feel everyday that they mean the world to you. Not just through words, but through your actions. Love isn’t always easy. It’s a choice. It is full of sacrifices. It’s a responsibility. It’s all those things and more.
If love then is difficult to keep, why do we fight every day just to have it? Simple. Because it’s worth it. Because without it, then what is it that we live for?
It must be the looming Valentine’s air, I have just seen this movie again for the nth time. If you haven’t, do yourself a favour and give it a bit of time. You’d be riding the feels train for sure.
I leave this question now to everyone: If you only have one day left to live, could you honestly say that you have made it worth it?
I have been most grateful for everything that has happened in 2019, but now, I am definitely ready to welcome what 2020 has to bring! We all have different ways in welcoming the new year. A lot of people join the “New Year New Me” fad, each and every single year, and to be honest, I don’t see anything wrong with that. Yes, some people will say it’s always short-lived; yes, a lot will say you can start anytime; but who the hell cares what other people do as long as it doesn’t affect you, right? Seriously, if it helps them some way and they get to follow it through for the whole year, good for them! If it doesn’t, well it’s none of our business. I can’t blame people for wanting a fresh start and the new year signifies the beginning and with it comes a promise that things will (or may) get better — which is why people do it. A clean slate for writing a new beginning! I myself have been creating a New Year’s Resolution list annually, but I fail like 90% of the time! But, I get to say that I have followed-through with at least 10% of my plans and that is more than enough of a feat for me! A good example is me studying French in the Duolingo app and I started January 2nd of 2019, now I’m at streak 364! 🙂 It may seem small but it’s a win for me! I may have not have made myself look sexier like I wanted a year ago, but I could definitely start again in attempting to do so and I might as well start now, on January 1st of 2020, who knows what will happen after 11 months and 30 days? 😀 I am starting small and I’ll get back to this post again a year after to see whether I’ve accomplished the ordeal or not! See, the clean slate that new year brings help motivate people, why should we be affected with that?
Seriously, I know I myself should follow my own pieces of advice sometimes, cause if I do, my life would be helluva lot better! However, here’s a couple that I’d like to throw to the world and hope people will see through, new year or not:
Always be grateful;
Mind your own business; and
Practice self-love.
These are the three things on top of my head that I would love everyone to always remember. Based on my own experiences, these three different philosophies actually helped me in making my life not just easier for me, but also making me a little bit more optimistic than my usual pessimistic self.
Firstly, being grateful always helps and it doesn’t make us less of a person to be one. Basically, appreciating the effort and help of people around us sends a positive vibe which in turn is shared to others. Isn’t it great to always be a beacon of light? 🙂 Being grateful doesn’t necessarily have to mean grand! It’s as simple as saying “thank you, I appreciate it” to someone who passed you the salt at the dinner table; or someone who gave you a small trinket just because he/she remembered you. It feels good to be appreciated. If it makes people feel good to hear a small thank you, then why should we deprive them of that? Having a grateful heart also means being grateful to the Lord for whatever blessings He may give you. Sometimes, it’s not what we want, but we have to remember that the Lord always gives us what we need. I don’t wanna sound like I’m preaching but I do believe in the existence of a higher power, one that is giving and loving and all thing positive. It is but right that at the end of the day, we say thanks to Him for providing His blessings to us. There are times when it’s hard to say thank you when we feel like we are carrying the weight of the world on our shoulders, but the very fact that we are breathing and we get to live another day is a reason enough to say thank you to Him.
Secondly, I can’t stress this one enough and minding your business is one of the most important things we could do this 2020. If it doesn’t affect you negatively, let others be, let them live, let them enjoy! It is normal for people to be curious about the things other people do, yes, but it doesn’t necessarily make it right to dabble in other people’s affairs. Say for example, you saw two guys holding hands or two ladies kissing, then so what? Why do we have to concern ourselves with whom other people sleep with? Why do we get irritated with someone who shares a lot of selfies online? Why do we scoff at people for sharing a photo with long captions *cough me cough* in Instagram? There are a lot of things that we could focus on than other people’s affairs. If it doesn’t help them or it doesn’t positively affect neither you nor them, then let’s freaking stay the hell out of it! Plain and simple.
Lastly, practice self-love. I could personally attest to this and I would like to put emphasis that practicing self-love is the most important kind of love. Yes, people would say noooo, it should be selfless-love and this and this and that and that! While I don’t necessarily disagree and I actually believe that selfless love is such a beautiful thing, I believe that loving yourself first should be of the utmost priority. We cannot give what we don’t have, and if we don’t love ourselves enough, then we wouldn’t be able to give out love to others, or at least not the right kind of love… not the kind that lasts. It’s bound for another post because it really needs an entry of its own, but I just want to say that loving ourselves first should be the foundation of giving love. We shouldn’t find others to complete us but we should be whole first before we try to love others. I don’t believe love is a matter of addition. We love when we are already whole so we could multiply it tenfolds. Loving ourselves does not mean narcissistic as we know the word, it just means taking care of your needs first before you take care of others. When you love yourself first, you’ll have an infinite supply of love to give to others. I have come to a point in my life where I no longer think of what my needs are, but only that of others. During my lowest of times, I’ve found myself literally standing at the verge of a cliff, empty, wondering whether it would be better had I no longer been in the picture. It took a great deal of reflecting and praying to make me remember how and why I shouldn’t do what I was about to do, and thankfully, I am still here. Since then, I’ve made a decision to love myself more and to be grateful, and from there, I have been finally living an amazing life. A life not devoid of worries and challenges, but a life that I now feel is worth living — that is because I’ve finally learned to love myself first. Now, I am surrounded by love and it is because I am ready to give out love because I finally have it.
Again, we all welcome beginnings differently and while some things may work well for you, some will not necessarily work for me. But generally speaking, trying to be grateful; minding our own businesses; and practicing self-love are the key ingredients in ensuring that we start our year positively. Doing this three things may seem very basic, like a drop of water in an ocean, but it’s these three droplets that will send out ripples of positive energy that affect a multitude of people. I hope you all have a wonderful 2020 and may we all be blessed with love, happiness, and contentment from this day on to infinity and beyond! 😀
It’s really the most wonderful time of the year! Here’s one of my favourite Christmas Songs — Winter Wonderland! 🙂
I know it’s not perfect but I have a wonderful time making this one, and same goes for the editing. Whenever I hear this song, it just gives me that chilly-in-a-good-way kind of feeling and I hope I could share it across to all you viewers!
I finally have started my YouTube channel and it’s called You Just Got Marked. As what’s stated in the video, I want to make sure that my videos or my channel leave somewhat of a mark to the viewers be it positive or negative, but I hope it’s the former.
What I aim to post are basically summed up in three words:
– Entertaining
– Educational
– Inspirational
It could be anything, probably some funny skits, a tech review, a “talk-show”, reaction video, song covers, etc. Anything that you could think of.
I also think that above all, I am creating this channel as a way to improve myself in terms of my confidence and creativity. I’ve always been into sharing stuff through my blog, but now I’m ready for more. 🙂
I plan to post at least a video a week. Hopefully more, but that’s my goal.
I have been trying to start my YouTube Channel for a very long time and slowly, it is coming into fruition. 🙂 This is my initial title sequence for my vlogs that I created using multiple mobile apps. As my channel grows, this too will eventually evolve. 🙂 I think it looks okay for now. A little cute. Hehe. 🙂
You Just Got Marked 